Sunday, November 8

My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out. And there is no sense.
In playing games, when you done all you can do.
We had the chance to make it. I wish that I could take it back.
I had lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry. Don't say this wont last forever.
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

Nw everything changes. Flaws, unhappiness started to tk place. To me u were once my everything. But nw i had to learn to let go of u at any point of time. I felt so lost inside. Where had our loving past been to?.. I hope everything will slowly gt bck to hw it once were. I know it wil either tk a long time or in fact we will nv find it bck as all the flaws hv covered the happiness which we once shared. Trust towards u have slowly been gained.

Why must u say such stuff as want to let go when in ur heart u stil doesn bear to..? Perhaps it just means nothin to u ttx y u cn let go mre & mre easily. Bt i do appreciate for ur presence.

When we were frens bck thn, i realise u cn b a gd fren, gd listenin ears. Ttx y til nw even ur fren called u to chat over anything i din say much cux i knw hw they feel.
However, being ur partner is diff. Ure really nt easy to love. Serious..

Bt y muz u lk for em wen ure jux plainly bored. & the 1st person u tot of is nt ur own gf? If therex things u want to ask them, i gt nth much to comment. Bt this, just msg for d sake of msg, i hv no idea what to say. Do u tink ure stil leadin singlehood? ttx y wenever ure free or bored u wil jux lk for them to chat?.. Therx a limit. I hope u know.. Well, shuldn conti on this topic further.

I'll always remember... it was late night.
It lasted forever, but feelings ended so soon.
In places no one will find,
all your feelings so deep inside, u hide to urself.
Was there that I realized that forever was in your eyes.
The moment I saw you cry when we first ended.

All over agn, It was late in January and I've seen you before that.
You were always the cold one but I was never that sure.
you were all by yourself when i asked you for accompany.

I wanted to hold you bck at tt time.
I wanted to make ur lonliness go away.
I wanted to know you.
I wanted to be your everything,
All right.. bck at tt time.

2:10 PM

Thursday, November 5

I cn only say is it really possible to really close 1 eye & 1 ear..? I have no idea how others do it. All i can say is at times i just cant keep everything to myself or even pretend as if i duno anything. Certain things just keep on repeating & hurting words start to sound in my ears.

1:51 PM

Thursday, October 15

Finally gt my DKNY perfume... Hahas.. Thnx Dear^^ My 9mth anniversary present. Hahas..

3:31 PM

3:10 PM

Friday, October 9

I feel that i'm getting more & more unhappy each day i'm with u. Just because u keep on saying that you're tired of this & that.. You're making me tired of it by saying that. Actually there's not much things which causes the unhappiness. But is you finding my weakness & pin point on it. In a relationship is all about compromising & understanding. Isn't it? Who wont get tired of it if the other party keep on saying things which might destroy the own relationship?.. Do you think you've got no weakness for me to pin point on..? I don't think so. But i don't want to keep on kicking a fuss about it.

Is From the bottom of my heart i trust u, seriously.(U might think is bullshit) But i know myself. I always asked u regarding certain things u dont like is due to i want to double confirm & is also to hear the truth from u too. Is always better to listen to the truth from someone's mouth rather than d own point of view OR put words into his mouth. I don't want to be unfair to you by doubting here & there. I will not asked anymore but keep to myself from now onwards.. Happy..? Just like in d past when we just get to know each other. Is u who asked me not to hide anything but tell u. However, i will not asked anymore. I know you can be someone who's faithful.. Simple.

As time past, i feel that my heart is shattering inside.. It hurts more whenever u have the thought of letting go & talk about you're tired being with me. It really hurts inside. How many times have you been saying want to let go after we get back..? Countless. Today you said "if my gf fall for others, than is not worth it.. I didn't say you. It can be anyone." U phase you're sentence this way. Anyone who just read this sentence would think as if i fall for other guys. Which i didn't. On top of that, u added "it can be anyone". Which not only me..? Your gf can be anyone else? But in d end what you're trying to say is actually since now you're with me, you won't fall for others. If you did, you're not worth it. I know! Nevermind about this, since the doubt have been cleared.

& you say "who knows if in the future who wil have another partners & vice versa"as well as "if the relationship is going on well, do you think anyone would say such things a thing?" Ain't all this sentence hurting..? So what if the fact is we really don't know if we will have another partner in the future? You think if everyone thinks like you, there will be any lasting relationship, any marriage?.. No there won't.
Even if others married, together in a relationship for few years, can they be assure that their partner won't fall for others? If your answer is yes, than why are there so many cases of divorce after marriage?.. Break up after so many years of relationship together?..
This is what will happens if everyone think like you. You're worried over those unnecessary too much.

With you like that keep on saying things like we ain't stable & stuff when the facts are there's only few problems which cant even be compromised, & you can say you're tired of it, it will never be stable if u keep on thinking & saying that way. Both of us are trying.. I cant stop how you want to think & i'm very assure that we are no longer like how we used to. U don't love me that much as compared to last time. I'm pretty sure.. All i can do now is to hope that you wil change your view. With you keep on saying those hurtful stuff, i won't be able to hold on for long too. I just hope that at least you can prove to me this relationship means & worth something which not little things can break it apart.. Don't you think other than the so called you're tired of it which consists of (...), there's no other problem.. That's all i have to say..

2:46 PM

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Rach^^ Who cn b ther to Acc me thru my darkest time..?

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