Wednesday, November 18

Yesterday we went to Kuishin Bo at Jurong Point to have our dinner. Wahahas.. Its a japan Buffet which cost $84.50 for 2 of us.. Well, i like the Alaska Crab! The sweetness of the crab makes the crab so delicious. Other than that, there's sushi, handroll, cheese seafood with potatoes, Sashimi, Teapot soup, unagi, tempura, nabei, udon, beef fried rice, cold prawn, musscle, crab etc.. hahas.. too much to mention. We reach there around 6.30pm & we finished our meals about 8.30pm. Wahh.. So full. After that we went to walk around at the newly renovated Jurong Point. It was an Unforgettable day.

When we were having a stroll, i asked dear when is he going to take his leave so that i can plan for my bday. Than he replied me what if last min got things on can cancel anot. The first thing that comes to my mind is that he might be thinking what if we break up at that time. Well, when i asked him is that the reason regarading why he asked me the question, he said nope. Yet when i asked him again through sms when we got home, he said yes, thats part of the reason.

I have no idea how no confidence can a person have in his own rs. It sounds sad to me. Anyway, we quarreld on our way back & he doesn't know how to coax me. Somemore supposingly is i am angry, but turn out that he's angry too.. After that he sent me home & we sat under my blk to chat. It was when i started to tell him what really happened when he makes me sad. As he heard what i told him, he felt soft heart(?) thn he tried to hold me in his arms. I felt the warmth within it & that's exactly what i need.
I jus hope things will turn for the better as time past, as it somehow seems like he couldn't have confidence in us. But i just hope he wil again.. i believe things will turn for the better if he don't think bad of it.

Today he start to say things like he's tired of it & stuff. I have no idea why he keeps on having the mindset despite things turn slightly better. I felt miserable at times due to his mentality. He just expect too much. Despite things are going on well, he still says he's tired of it. I merely hope that he can change his mindset at times. Perhaps everything will be better.

2:38 PM

Sunday, November 8

My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out. And there is no sense.
In playing games, when you done all you can do.
We had the chance to make it. I wish that I could take it back.
I had lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry. Don't say this wont last forever.
My, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.

Nw everything changes. Flaws, unhappiness started to tk place. To me u were once my everything. But nw i had to learn to let go of u at any point of time. I felt so lost inside. Where had our loving past been to?.. I hope everything will slowly gt bck to hw it once were. I know it wil either tk a long time or in fact we will nv find it bck as all the flaws hv covered the happiness which we once shared. Trust towards u have slowly been gained.

Why must u say such stuff as want to let go when in ur heart u stil doesn bear to..? Perhaps it just means nothin to u ttx y u cn let go mre & mre easily. Bt i do appreciate for ur presence.

When we were frens bck thn, i realise u cn b a gd fren, gd listenin ears. Ttx y til nw even ur fren called u to chat over anything i din say much cux i knw hw they feel.
However, being ur partner is diff. Ure really nt easy to love. Serious..

Bt y muz u lk for em wen ure jux plainly bored. & the 1st person u tot of is nt ur own gf? If therex things u want to ask them, i gt nth much to comment. Bt this, just msg for d sake of msg, i hv no idea what to say. Do u tink ure stil leadin singlehood? ttx y wenever ure free or bored u wil jux lk for them to chat?.. Therx a limit. I hope u know.. Well, shuldn conti on this topic further.

I'll always remember... it was late night.
It lasted forever, but feelings ended so soon.
In places no one will find,
all your feelings so deep inside, u hide to urself.
Was there that I realized that forever was in your eyes.
The moment I saw you cry when we first ended.

All over agn, It was late in January and I've seen you before that.
You were always the cold one but I was never that sure.
you were all by yourself when i asked you for accompany.

I wanted to hold you bck at tt time.
I wanted to make ur lonliness go away.
I wanted to know you.
I wanted to be your everything,
All right.. bck at tt time.

2:10 PM

Thursday, November 5

I cn only say is it really possible to really close 1 eye & 1 ear..? I have no idea how others do it. All i can say is at times i just cant keep everything to myself or even pretend as if i duno anything. Certain things just keep on repeating & hurting words start to sound in my ears.

1:51 PM

Thursday, October 15

Finally gt my DKNY perfume... Hahas.. Thnx Dear^^ My 9mth anniversary present. Hahas..

3:31 PM

3:10 PM

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